I refuse to propagate this thing further, but considering I haven't done a journal, I'll do it.

Anyway, here are eight things about me.

1. I've been an atheist for quite a while. And by that I mean that I'm an agnostic atheist, which means that I don't believe in any sort of "god" because no one can prove one exists. You may think of this non belief as the same as for fairies, leprechauns, or Santa. You can't prove it exists, so why should I believe you? That is why I quite sincerely don't believe. I also get quite irritated when people try and use nonsensical arguments against atheism. Such arguments are usually "atheism requires faith," "deep down you really believe in a god, you just haven't found him yet," and many others including "don't you mean agnostic?" No, none of those things are even arguments. The definition of atheism is the absence of faith, deep down I really don't believe in god and I've looked quite hard, and I don't mean agnostic but actually prefer the term coined by Douglas Adams "radical atheist" in that unless you provide me with some substantial amount of real evidence for a god I am sticking with 99.99% of evidence that goes against most religion (agnosticism actually has to do with knowledge, not god. As in you can be an agnostic theist just as much as you can be an agnostic atheist, here's a link if you are confused: [link] ). But the most irritating thing is people being condescending about their argument. In most cases I feel like I have done far more research regarding the subject than most theists have. None of this means that I don't like to debate the issue, because I do, but I won't let you insult me or use nonsensical arguments i.e. you must be intelligent.

2. I feel like I got dealt a fairly shit hand in some respects, but try not to bitch about it too much, both because I know other people who have it worse and because there are some people who without even being asked took it upon themselves to help me in ways that I can never repay.

3. The US education system sucks balls. People are forced to get education that will literally never be important to them in the least and it takes away from those that could actually use it. This applies to me in both senses. I really could care less about the way they teach English and History. I like both the subjects, but the curriculums are retarded. I learned more about English from Latin I than I did in English I-IV combined. And even the classes that I do like and will be useful tend to be taught in a ridiculous way. For instance AP stats. That class is awful, I mean, the course material is the same as what kids in middle school learn. And even when I try and take extra classes at UNCA and online, quite often I'm forced to take them without receiving credit for them, or told I can't take them at all.

4. I can't stand catch-22's, ultimatums, or hypocrisy, even though I find myself in them/using them more often than I would like.

5. Sometimes I think that I spread myself far too thin. There are so many things that I wish I could do, but feel like I don't have time. I spent many years learning the ins and outs of computer programing and video editing and have more equipment than you can dream of to do it with, but even though I no longer am in foster care, ever since I left my home I haven't done much at all with computers. I have played bassoon for almost seven years and have never been first chair, but don't think I want to just be given it, I want to earn it, but I rarely practice and make very few reeds. I love learning, to the point that I take so many classes and do so much independent research on stuff that I quite often get very poor grades. I really like outdoor things, but I haven't been kayaking for almost three years, or mountain biking since I broke my collar bone, or snowboarding since I wrecked my car trying to. (Is it irritating how much I'm using the word "I" to you? because it is to me. Maybe I should pay more attention in English class, or would that be hypocritical? Oh well) Sometimes I wish I could just pick one thing and run with it, but I don't want to give up the other things I have worked for.

6. I bite my tongue around people who don't like to hear the truth, because I know some people don't want to hear it, but when I say something that isn't sarcastic or a joke, it is my honest opinion and isn't sugar coated in any way. I've pissed a lot of people off that way, but I still do it because I know that when I ask someone's opinion I want the truth and not what they think will make me feel better.

Are you still reading this?

7. I take jokes too far quite often. I think people take things too seriously. I never mean to hurt anyone's feelings, because nothing is fun unless everyone is having fun.

8. I hate when people don't tell me things. I would rather know and deal with the reality of the situation then live in the dark and let things get worse.

Hmmm, that was longer than I thought it would be.